I sense This whole journey is just a thankless job loaded on my shoulders by the destiny . I ealized that quite late when I thought about my mother and father and what they did for me and my brother. We just lived and grew up tried to follow what the others were doing. It took a long time for me to realize all that happened on somebody else's toil. was it intentional ? Did they do what they felt , had to be done ? Was it a biological reaction ? We came in to existence because of a biological reaction. Whether it was biology or chemistry When I really understood the sacrifices they made I cried hiding the tears from the world in their absence because they left long time ago. I know that I am in debt but it is too late to repay I am weeping inside while laughing to the world outside. Probably the load on my shoulder I carried for years and still carrying is the repayment I never felt the weight during those long years but may be I am old I am feeling the weight now My grown up kids will be waiting to take that load on their shoulders.. They are busy getting ready. When I depart They will take short leave to bury or burn my bones because the world says it is their duty. I hope they will not cry later the way I did ! 06-01-26